Pride

 I never thought that I would do this, And have this public. but here I go.

When I was in my early to late 20's I have discovered something different about me and my sexuality, and if I was bisexual. I had this feeling actually since i was like 18 years old. My junior yr of High school. I started to have the change in my life and when I discovered that I was attractive to girls. But I am still attractive to men. I have kept this secret for a very long time and I never told any of my family members. Not one. Was I ashamed? No it just never came up to tell my mom. I remember one time mom and I were walking to play Bingo up the road. My own mother actually says to me that she wants me to find the guy that will love and wants to take care of me. For the rest of my Life. But here is the twist, I never actually would hear tis from my own mother, She would be happy if I was a lesbian. And I was surprise to hear that from her. I love my mom, and missing my mom too. Unfortunately she passed away. But I will never forget my mom, I wish that I have told her that I was attractive to girls. For many years I have kept this secret. I never had a relationships with girls, but I have had relationships with men. And as always I been hurt so many times. I can't seem to find the love of my life, I thought I did. 

Now, to this day, Do I still find ladies attractive, Yes. But do I want to pursue a relationship? No. I like the way things are now. Nothing to tie me down with big responsibilities. accept my own apartment and taking care of my cat, Balki. 

In closing, I have decided on my fate on women and men. ( For now I have chosen to be with a guy) 

In my heart, I want to have the relationship that I deserve. But no matter what relationship it is. Our hearts will always get hurt and broken. I will always support L.S.B.T.Q 

I have many friends that gay and lesbians. And I support them all the way.