I never thought that i would do this, why i kept this a secret for almost two years now. My family doesn't even know about this. I just couldn't bare to tell them. Because this still hurts me to this day now. I have always wanted a mini me, a daughter or son. I would of love to spoil my child. and to give as much as love and attention to my angel. My daughter would of have the name Aurora, (Roe) for short. and if i had a boy, it would of been Adam.
But in my case and because of the disability that i have, and also because of my age as well, I am not able to have kids. I am fertile. I have my good days about this, and then i don't. it gets to me. But i know i would of been so lucky and happy. That i will have a miracle baby, just like I was. Because of my Down Syndrome, there would of been a chance that my baby would have Down Syndrome. I do carry the genetics. And it is a possibility.
I have been two fertility doctors, and i would get the same answers. Two years this December I have adopted a stray cat, He was left outside one day and he was only a couple months old, he is my baby now, We pretty much adopted one another. I have given him the cutest name ever, I don't know if you know this show or not, Perfect Strangers. It stars Bronson Pinchot and Mark-lynn Baker. they play cousins, Balki Bartokomous and Larry Appleton. Well, I name my cat Balki B. and my last name too.
Balki is a wonderful cat, He is my feline son. In my heart I do have a son, he is just my precious feline son. And i love my baby so much.
One more thing, once i post this blog, it will be seen by a family member. I think i am ok with that now.
Thank you.
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