Azkye4life

Azkye4life
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Wednesday, August 29, 2018

End of the road

Well it is coming to end for me here at phoenix college, it has been a great adventure here. I have been here since 2013. And when i first started i wasn't sure what career path that i wanted to do. I have several careers that i would want and love to do. My first dream was to become an actress, I have always dreamed of working with Julie Andrews and Dick Van Dyke.I idolize these two for many years now. I have always wanted to do a movie with Julie and Dick, they are amazing and what else can i say about these two, oh yeah i actually share the same birthday with Mrs. Andrews. That's right i actually share the same bday. when i first found out about it i was so thrilled and excited that i get to share my bday with her. I would of been honored to meet her. it would've been great and to have that opportunity. One day i hope too. Anyways i am getting a little off track about my topic, lol. Phoenix college has been so wonderful to me. And i have been getting help with almost everything. except one, but they can't really help me with that. anyhow it truly has been amazing with my adventure here. I am actually counting down to the day that i will graduate. December of this year. All i have to do is past these three classes that i have, one is i am retaking because i didn't do so well last semester, and i need to pass this class in order to my graduation day. Plus i am working girl too. I just been rehired to work at the fitness center here at my school. my hrs are great and the extra money will come in handy for me. and to help me with my expenses like my rent and grocery shopping too. and maybe i can do something nice for myself. I do tell myself no once in awhile because it is not a need, it is a want. Sometimes i have to have it too. But that all depends on what i see and how much i would want it. I'm doing it again, lost track about my education. However, just recently i have been accepted for a waiver that had got me dismissed from math, all the math classes. because i have a hard time and trouble grasping the material. I cant seem to understand and how to do it. Luckily my PH Doctor who i saw few months ago, diagnosed me with math problems, but he also diagnosed me with depression. I get so emotional more than i was before. its still hard on me, but i go day at a time.

Now i have been thinking about my career choice and what i wanted to do, and i have decided on art, yes i am an artist. I love art and how it represents me and how i feel about it too. I love everything like from ceramics, to sketching and painting. and i also love to build things too. I would love to build my dream home and decorate the way i wanted it to be. One day i would love to have that opportunity. My dad was a hand builder, he would make all these types of furniture, My dad Harold, was an amazing dad and be what he wanted to do. It will be 4 yrs this October that i loss my dad. he passed away unexpectually. And i had taken his passing very hard, and i still do. it still hurts to this day. I love you dad and i miss you, and mom. I know that you will be there in spirit to see me graduate and to accept my art degree on that graduation day.

I have worked to hard to get where i am at now, and i am so proud of myself to make it this far, when i first got my first A in my class i had called my mom and gave her the good news, and mom was very proud of me. And she said "My daughter Kylene has gotten her first A in college." I will never forget that day when i told my mom. It was also very hard that same yr after my dad passed i had loss my mom two months after my dad passed away. To close to Christmas in 2014.  I had lost it and got myself into a depression and had lost my bday and Christmas spirit. After the holidays was over i had been lonely more than ever. It has been so hard that yr and 2015 and present now. The last night i had saw my dad was the night of my bday. i'm turning 40 yrs old this yr, and i am not looking forward to my age, or my day. because it was the last time i saw my dad before he passed. "i'm doing it again losing track here.

Lets end to counting down to my graduation day in December of this year 2018.
thank you

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