Christmas Time

Tis the season to be happy and thankful. and to have a great season. About two years ago i was in a depression because I had loss both my parents. I had lost my spirit for a very long time. And then last year I loss my older brother jay. He was unexpected and i was devastated and hurting really bad. We were really close. Jay has always been there for me. And that is what i love about him. I love you jay and i will always think of you and mom and dad. I miss you all so much. My mom has always been there for me too. And when i found out mom was diagnosis with cancer. I was hurt and was hoping mom would be okay. Mom has fought for 2 years, but i loss my mom to the battle of cancer. And just before she died. She had told and asked me to find someone that will treat me with respect and will love me for me. and who i am. I had a feeling that my brother jay and my dad would have said the same thing. They wouldn't want to see me hurting. I miss them everyday. Just this year around my bday i was getting the spirit back, I was starting to get my spirit back. And its a good thing. But around the holidays i feel emotional. I am still having a rough patch, But i am okay. I just want to be happy again. And be strong too. And for my aunt Renee. I love my aunt so much and i feel more closer to her. I love spending time with her too. She and my cousin Carrie love that i call and check in with them. They like that, unfortunately i can't right now because i didn't have enough money to keep my phone on. But i am dealing with it. I been through this before. And again. I just need to be patient and wait to get my phone service turn back on. And i will. I'm ok. plus i been busy with my finals. this week is my last, and finally on christmas break. I hope that i am not being to personal Here. I do try and keep that to myself. I just wanted to express here on my blog. it's kind of like a family thing. I like turning to my blog page. And be in Kylene's zone. Thank you everyone. Next time i can talk about good things that will happen for the new year 2017.