End of the road

Well it is coming to end for me here at phoenix college, it has been a great adventure here. I have been here since 2013. And when i first started i wasn't sure what career path that i wanted to do. I have several careers that i would want and love to do. My first dream was to become an actress, I have always dreamed of working with Julie Andrews and Dick Van Dyke.I idolize these two for many years now. I have always wanted to do a movie with Julie and Dick, they are amazing and what else can i say about these two, oh yeah i actually share the same birthday with Mrs. Andrews. That's right i actually share the same bday. when i first found out about it i was so thrilled and excited that i get to share my bday with her. I would of been honored to meet her. it would've been great and to have that opportunity. One day i hope too. Anyways i am getting a little off track about my topic, lol. Phoenix college has been so wonderful to me. And i have been getting help with almost everything. except one, but they can't really help me with that. anyhow it truly has been amazing with my adventure here. I am actually counting down to the day that i will graduate. December of this year. All i have to do is past these three classes that i have, one is i am retaking because i didn't do so well last semester, and i need to pass this class in order to my graduation day. Plus i am working girl too. I just been rehired to work at the fitness center here at my school. my hrs are great and the extra money will come in handy for me. and to help me with my expenses like my rent and grocery shopping too. and maybe i can do something nice for myself. I do tell myself no once in awhile because it is not a need, it is a want. Sometimes i have to have it too. But that all depends on what i see and how much i would want it. I'm doing it again, lost track about my education. However, just recently i have been accepted for a waiver that had got me dismissed from math, all the math classes. because i have a hard time and trouble grasping the material. I cant seem to understand and how to do it. Luckily my PH Doctor who i saw few months ago, diagnosed me with math problems, but he also diagnosed me with depression. I get so emotional more than i was before. its still hard on me, but i go day at a time.

Now i have been thinking about my career choice and what i wanted to do, and i have decided on art, yes i am an artist. I love art and how it represents me and how i feel about it too. I love everything like from ceramics, to sketching and painting. and i also love to build things too. I would love to build my dream home and decorate the way i wanted it to be. One day i would love to have that opportunity. My dad was a hand builder, he would make all these types of furniture, My dad Harold, was an amazing dad and be what he wanted to do. It will be 4 yrs this October that i loss my dad. he passed away unexpectually. And i had taken his passing very hard, and i still do. it still hurts to this day. I love you dad and i miss you, and mom. I know that you will be there in spirit to see me graduate and to accept my art degree on that graduation day.

I have worked to hard to get where i am at now, and i am so proud of myself to make it this far, when i first got my first A in my class i had called my mom and gave her the good news, and mom was very proud of me. And she said "My daughter Kylene has gotten her first A in college." I will never forget that day when i told my mom. It was also very hard that same yr after my dad passed i had loss my mom two months after my dad passed away. To close to Christmas in 2014.  I had lost it and got myself into a depression and had lost my bday and Christmas spirit. After the holidays was over i had been lonely more than ever. It has been so hard that yr and 2015 and present now. The last night i had saw my dad was the night of my bday. i'm turning 40 yrs old this yr, and i am not looking forward to my age, or my day. because it was the last time i saw my dad before he passed. "i'm doing it again losing track here.

Lets end to counting down to my graduation day in December of this year 2018.
thank you

graduation day December 2018.

I can't believe that its coming to an end, being at phoenix college has been a journey for me. it was a wonderful experience since i wanted to be in college. okay its not an actual university college. Phoenix community college was the greatest and best experience in the last 4 years. since i join this school in 2013. and now its 2018. and its time to say good bye. I will miss everything about school. And how it got me out of my apartment and do the things that i wanted to do in life. I am a artist. and i am proud of where i am to be at in my life. Having an associates in fine arts degree is what i wanted. I had recently thought about transferring to ASU in Tempe and wanted to continue with my education. I wanted to see about getting a bachelors in fine arts. I still want to do that, but recently my PH doctor doesn't recommend. from all the stress that i have been going through. And the loads of classes that i have been taking for my requirements and trying to finish school. I hate that its been a little stressful. I can't even retake the ceramics class. And that was relaxing me because it takes all the stress off of me. That's why i kept on taking this class. because it was helping me with my stress. I have joined the fitness center at school that i can take my stress off on too. I have also found out that my insurance, will pay for any gym memberships. And that is cool. I don't have to pay for the membership. my health insurance will. that is awesome. I am finally getting all the things that i wanted. My biggest stress right now is finding a new apartment for me and my cat, Balki. Balki has been so great to me since he was found on my porch just last December 2017. So many things are coming good for me, The one thing that was so stressful was a certain subject that i don't like and i had to try and do the best that i could. That's why i was luckily to have a great school counselor that told me about this program that can help me and possibly get a waiver that will get me dismissed.  Which i got, and this is fantastic news for me. it has been a journey and i will miss being at phoenix college. I'll probably be to excited and crying on my graduation in December.I will be a college graduate....

Graduation Day coming soon

I have some wonderful news to tell you all. Just recently I have been accepted for a waiver, From a PH doctor, He diagnosed me with depression, I am okay but that's not the great news. The waiver is the greatest and sensational news. I have been officially been dismissed from math. This has been the news i have been waiting for. I no longer have to take math anymore. I can't believe this, You know what this means? It means that i will be graduating in the fall. Dec 2018. I will be a college graduate. I will have my associates degree for fine arts. I can't believe its coming to an end. It has been a journey for me. Since i started school. It sure was a challenge. And i loved every minute of it. It has been wonderful. My family is very proud of me. I can't to get on that stage and accept my degree. I was planning on transferring to ASU, But Dr. Hixon doesn't recommend me continue with ASU, He wants me to finish and graduate from phoenix college. And be done with. Plus i have to take counseling, and they will be helping and providing me with a job, means they can help me find a job. But they don't help with housing, Wish they did, but i was told that they don't. Bummer too because i could really use the help and find a new apartment. I can't afford this apt anymore. I need a lot cheaper place. And something more nicer for me and my cat Balki. Any ways  i wanted to give good news, plus its been awhile since i used my blog here. I just don't always post, i do when i have good news. basically. But i think i can make this more normal activity for me. I like it, and keeps me busy kind of. Well i need to get off i have finals i need to get done tonight. Talk soon.
Kylene

Merry christmas everyone

mmmjHappy Holidays.
Its been a rough year, and its also been kind of a good year too. Its still hard on me during this time of year. I miss my parents and my brother so much. I know they are watching out for me. and want to see me to do the right things. And i have been doing everything right. School is going good. I been told by one of my mentors that i only have two more semesters to go and i can finally graduate next fall of 2018. That's if i pass the math092. and yes i still have to take one more college level of math. Its gotten more tougher this time. And i am trying the best that can. Anyways school semester is coming to an end. And i am still sad that i can't returned back to ceramics class. I have been having so much fun with this class. I am still going to do ceramics. when i transfer to ASU in tempe they have a ceramic classes there. And they have my bachlors degree there too. I want to get my bachlors. i am about to get my associates degree in fine arts at phoenix college. And i can't wait. I know my family will be proud of me. I can't wait to get on tha stage and accept my art degree. I'm also going to try for a scholarship too. So that i can attend ASU in Tempe, and i would actually want to  move to Tempe while i am attending at ASU. I love Tempe, when i go to the movies i now go to the AMC theater there. I havn't been to the movies in awhile. I would like to see a new movie again . maybe before i am back in school. I am not into horror movies, but i do like the Halloween movies with Jamie lee Curtis, I found out awhile ago that she is repriseing her role again for another Halloween movie. And i am actually interesting and want to see this at the AMC theater. And i would like to invite Javier, my boyfriend to go with me. He loves horror movies. 

Well, this year has been a challenged. And i hope my new year 2018. is better and hopefully to have everything new in my life. New apartment, I wish i could afford a house but i can't. but it would be nice. Everyday when i walk on Earl st on my way to school there is this house that i have my eyes on. I love the color and the shape of the house and i would love to have something like that someday. I have a presentation to put together for next weeks potluck and final night of class. And then i am officially on christmas break. until school starts again. Please help and pray for me with this math final. I want to do good again and pass. 

Take care for now, and i will be back soon. 
Merry christmas!

What or why

What or why isn't this person being totally committed, and does he or she love you. Really. How can you be totally committed to someone when that person had lied to you or has been keeping secrets from your love one, I mean does he or she really love you, and will be completely in love with you. How can you tell if they really love you. Do I look into his or her eyes, can that be a clue on to see if they are telling the truth. Are we really in a relationship. Or is just F.W.B. Should this person stop giving her significant other surprises.

Can someone plz, tell me does this person really love you. Does he or she asked you "Are you being hit on, or is someone flirting with you." When you go out with a friend, lets say you go to karaoke on a Saturday night, Do you actually sing, or go and hit on stranger. hmmm?

What happens when you discovered, that this person has lied to you in the past, Should this person approach him or her and just come straight out, and tell this person that you know the truth. Or keep the info. to yourself. Will it stress this person so bad that he or she will burst it out one day, after knowing the truth.

Will you have the courage and to purpose to your love one, Are you ready for the marriage and the life and commitment. And have the family you been wanting to have.

IS your relationship, truthfully, and honest, or is it all lies and leads you on for a long time. ARE you actually in love.

To be continued....

Best Semester spring 2017/ Summer break

It's been a great semester for me. And i have great news too. I have been struggling with math 082 class. I am not good when it comes to math. But three times a charmed. I had finally did it. and i passed this class. I had worked and studied and did the best that i could. And when my professor gave me the final grade. I broke down and said really. He was happy for me, He gave me a "B" I finally passed math, well at least the first level, now i have my next level of math 092. I would love to see if i can do it again. I am now another step closer to graduation. can't wait.  Right now i am on my summer break. And i am going to be having a great summer. Next month i am going to a concert. Adam Lambert & Queen. Can't wait on this night next month. Anyways i had a great semester. I got all great grades. two A's and three B's. There is also a great chance that i made the honor roll again. I won't know until i get the email from school. But have to wait and see.... Now that i am on summer break for the next 13 weeks. I am going to relax and enjoy my summer. I have a couple of things  that i have plan for my summer. First is the concert. and sometime next week i will be going to a free event. And look for more free events to go to. And hopefully i can finally move out of this apt, and into a new and cheaper place to live. And be closer to school. I want to stay in Phoenix, But my cousin still wants me to move more closer like Glendale. I like Glendale, but i love Phoenix. I want to stay in Phoenix. I have school here and my relationship with Javier. Our 7th anniversary is next month. And he is everything to me, i don't want to be to far away from him. or my school. still looking for a good place near by. just don't know where in phoenix yet.... Hmmm. have a great summer.

school fun activities

This semester, i am being more active. and trying new things at school. Like after school activity. I just signed up for the pcc got talent. waiting for that next week. i just signed up today. And next week i will audition. I love to sing. so that will be my talent. And i know just the song too. Glee version of Lea Michele "Get it right". my favorite one. I also have tried a club activity, but it wasn't as fun as i thought it was. so i decided to discontinue that club, I am also going to try out for cheerleading too. I been a cheerleader once before. And i love it. And i would like to try again... I am actually getting myself out there more and be more active.
This semester now, has been keeping me busy more. and all these field trips. I have done at least two so far. and have a few more to go to. two of my classes, ceramics and art marketing are when i have field trips. just last week i went to Tempe, and went with a classmate and friend. to the ASU ceramic gallery, we had a lot of fun that night. Right now i am just kickin back and hanging out at the student union center, i still have two more classes. lab, and extra night of class. since last Thursday didn't have class because of the field trip. So my class lost time of work. I should've been done with my new muppet, and started on something new by now. I will have it done by tomorrow night.
anyways, i am gonna try and see about playing a game here. like mario brothers. been waiting to see about playing... One more thing before i go, I am excited for my summer break... I have plans for the month of June. Can't wait.... its going to be a fun and exciting night. take care for now...