Remebering My brother Eric

I don't know how to explain this, is the most difficult blog post for me. I want to say something about people who have committed suicide. And reason why I want to do this.

First, is its really sad and hurtful that someone hurts themselves. why? Idk. I have a big heart and i care about these people, even celebrities do this too. its an awful thing to end their lives. Like Robin Williams, I was shocked to hear that he had taken his own life. He will always be funny and always entertains us, I'm sure he is entertaining in heaven, That's what i like think. Nothing wrong with that.

Anyways, I have recently found out last month the night of the super bowl, The day after that i get a text from a family friend Cindy. She has informed me that my youngest brother Eric has taken his life. by committed suicide. He hung himself. I am still hurting and feel alone. My own brother. I know we havn't been that close but Eric was my baby brother. I will miss him deeply.

I remember the good times i had with my brother Eric, He was there for me when we were teenagers, He would actually go out and find the bullies that have hurt me, and have called me the worse name, to this day I still hate the word and being called a retard. No one has respect for that. I also hate the way people used that word for anything. We need to put a stop to it. thats what i want.


I have gone into a deep depression for days, then turn to two weeks that i wanted to shut everything out for awhile. I had to remind myself that we can't prevent it and try to stop it. Suicide is a disease, I hope i am not saying to much here, But i just want to express my feelings with what i care about. I remember a country artist that i like and still a fan of hers, Mindy McCready, she is talented and has a great voice, One of her hits, Ten Thousand Angels, is my favorite song that she recorded.

It's really sad to the loss of love ones, My brother May he rest In Peace. Eric I love you and i miss you everyday. what else hurts that i don't want my brother's remains. It scares me. It's just me and my younger sister now. I am afraid and concern. I just want what's best for her and to get well. And come home soon.

I an in tears, need end this post.
H. Kylene

Associates in fine arts

I did it, I am officially done with my college years, I have my associates in fine arts degree. I have come a very long road with my education. I also know in my heart that my parents are proud of me. and the rest of my family as well too. tbh, I didn't think i was gonna make it. But i proved to myself that once i put a goal to what i want and to have. I earned it. Just like when i was on the presidents honor roll. from my school it was incredible to have that, I couldn't believe that happened. that was like 2 yrs ago. It was awesome. 

Now that i am finished and waiting for May 10th 2019, My graduation Day. I also pick up my cap and gown next week. I feel like i want to cry:

Next Monday, i will be making a short clip to thank someone, and for all the help that this person has done for me. He has been so wonderful to me. Gene Heppard, Mr. Heppard helped me and told me about this program that can help me and get a waiver, that will get me dismissed from any type of math. That has helped and improved a lot for my education.  This program that i am on, its been almost a year since i got accepted. So far we have put together my resume, and have done a field trips to art galleries with one of my staff member, Dollie. She is my job coach and has been helping me with my budget too. so far so good, Now my other good news, I have my first job interview this Friday, get this the job i had applied for is, a costume character. for LegoLand Discover center, in Tempe. Its not exactly what i wanted but it's kind of close too. I am an artist. I want a job that involves in art. I am now part of the art world. I like to be famous one day. And have my own art shows and one day own my own art studio. I love just about everything. Ceramics, making art and jewelry. and i also love water colors and pastels too. And i most definitely love oil painting too. 

The most definite person that i have admire for years is Thomas kinkade, the painter of light. He is the main reason why i want to be an artist.  
signing off for now. 
H. Kylene